#118

Got in to a bit of a disagreement with the boy today. It started last night when we were having dinner when he said something that he's been thinking about this week, since I've moved out and he's 'had to think about it himself'. It triggered me so much that I gave him the silent…

#115

Over the past two weeks, I've went out looking for places to rent. Not that the boy's parents told me too, but they probably felt that it's better for me to move out anyway. Maybe that's why they did not say anything about it, asked why, or even told me not to. The boy's mum…

#114

Over last night, I realized that as long as I know the boy is coming home, no matter how late, I would have trouble sleeping. I've told the boy a thousand times that I can't sleep well without him, but honestly, sometimes even I think I am just bullshitting myself. Only found out last night…

#110

Start of Phase 2 and also started going back to work the past two ~ three weeks which is great. Also means work is getting busier now, mostly to stock up the chiller / freezer now?? I obviously make my colleagues so very tired because I am not only forgetful (to the extend where I…

#106

If I were to order food, or go downstairs to buy food, or even go anywhere like getting groceries and I don’t ask the boy’s family if they want anything, his mum will think I’m being selfish. Even if my sis orders me bubble tea, she will get for the boy’s family also. Even if…

#105

I just went to visit the clinic this morning, more like two hours ago. Been having breathing problems that I only took notice of yesterday. Two days ago, my heart rate was over the roof for only doing leg exercises and I low key freaked out. I don't know why it didn't occur to me…

#097

It's one of those days where I feel very very 委屈, the kind that I know nobody would understand. I feel like I've also brought this up to the boy enough times that I should give him a break, considering that he's work is stressing him out too. In life, everybody has a plan. When…

#093

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z0YTEi-RzYI Day 1 of the boy being away. 5 more days. It's only the first night but phew. It is different from the other days because I know he isn't coming home tonight. I know he tries to text me as much as possible. But also due to my constant threat that I will ignore…

#089

I have come to a realization that life itself is not difficult, it's the people you meet along the way. It is forever the same problem, different topic. Wouldn't say that it was expected because his mum hasn't really lashed out at anyone this year or anything, neither has she shown any dislike towards me.…

#081

Finally got to spend an afternoon with the boy. Haven't got to spend this much time together in awhile due to work. Since yesterday was a public holiday off-in-lieu, and I managed to get off without having to ask. I wanted to go have dimsum buffet breakfast initially, but realized the boy barely went to…