Maybe I was too quick to say that work was getting more stable last week. It went spiraling downhill afterwards. I went back to the boy’s place, crying, for seven days straight out of the past nine days I was at work. It was like, I was getting blame for all the things that I… Continue reading #027



Not quite sure if work is getting easier or am I just getting used to it. At least, I haven't heard them ask if I did it for the past few days. Work was kind of tensed the other day and I'm kind of hoping it wouldn't be so when I'm back on it tomorrow.… Continue reading #026


Work has been pretty average lately,  literally same thing different day. Is this how three weeks has passed and I barely even noticed? Work has been okay, if you minus when anything goes wrong and they always ask if it's you - first. I get quite offended by it, honestly. Out of every one, the… Continue reading #025


The boy has been so busy with the funeral that it's obviously wrong to throw a tantrum. But it's been getting really difficult to keep it in. Especially since I woke up this morning, insecure. I had a bad dream where we fought and he just decides to hit on some girl that we've never… Continue reading #024


Just a quick update on my phone while I'm laying on the play mat of my friend's house. 1210am and I'm too stressed to sleep. There is honestly nothing for me to stress, but my schedule came in at the wrong time where it's almost my bedtime. I tend to stress about my schedule a… Continue reading #023


Things have been a little messy here and there, that I've been looking for the words to put it here. I've also been at the boy's place a lot lately, maybe that's why I haven't seem to find the time to sit down and reflect on how everything has been. Which I suppose is good… Continue reading #022


Been almost a month since I posted anything. It's been honestly pretty much work and the boy. Mostly with me being frustrated about getting a full time job and feeling like our relationship is threatened by it. I get where the boy is coming from but can't help feeling like it's testing us. Testing him.… Continue reading #021